I came across something while browsing on Pinterest the other day that was a prompt to do more journaling. Everyday I write in a gratitude journal, read my bible, and reflect, reflect, reflect! I used to self-reflect into self destruction in my youth, over analyzing everything I did, didn’t do, should do until I felt so guilty and hard on myself. That was before I knew the grace of God fully, but sometimes I do find spiritual warfare and it challenges me. There’s a difference between feeling convicted (which comes from God) and being shamed (which comes from the enemy). Now I see self-reflection as a way to grow in my character, rather than attack myself. Sometimes we just carry on in life and do whatever we think we should be doing, but seldom do we stop to think about our purpose. I loved some of these questions, so I wanted to share them with you in today’s blogpost and you can either journal on your own, or if you feel open to sharing, leave me your answers in the comments below! I love hearing what this community has to say! I’ll even answer some too! XOXO

WHAT AM I GRATEFUL FOR? LIST AT LEAST 10 THINGS.

God’s Grace, My Husband, My Family, Our Health, My Dogs, My Two Businesses & the amazing opportunities it brings us, A Cozy Home (shelter, food, rest), Our Friends, Travelling the world and Sunsets.

WHEN DID I EXPERIENCE JOY THIS WEEK?

Lately, our puppy Lucy has been the biggest joy in our lives. Whenever she does something really cute or learns something, we become these giddy, proud parents who are obsessed with her!

WHAT’S BOTHERING ME? WHY?

Not being able to do everything I want to in a shorter period of time. I have so many things I want to bring to fruition, but there are time limitations. Whether it’s videos we want to put out faster, my website revamp or collections for my print shop – I wish some things didn’t take so long, but that’s a good lesson in patience for me! I just love bringing you all our best and want to do even more! 🙂

WHAT ADVICE WOULD I GIVE TO MY YOUNGER SELF? (DO I FOLLOW THIS NOW?)

This is a whole blogpost in and of itself! I wouldn’t say I was a rebel, I played life pretty safe actually, I was pretty fearful. I suffered from anxiety and panic attacks and like most people, fell in to the wrong friend groups at times. However, like all teenagers, we go through a phase and we’re not all proud of those growing periods. I would just say, Stephanie, you’re already spoken for. You have a Father in heaven who loves you as you are. You don’t need the approval of others, you don’t need to judge everyone’s actions around you and let them hurt you, and if you follow God’s way for you, it’ll turn out better than you could even plan yourself. Everything I went through when I was younger, God was there. I wasn’t fully aware of the gospel, I was baptized in an Orthodox church as a baby but never completely absorbed the message or knew a lot about what God said about me or wanted for my life. It was more cultural for me growing up. A year after high school, I discovered a non-denominational church I am still apart of now, and it has blessed me over and over. I always felt God existed growing up, I’m thankful to my family for that, but I really knew Him as I started becoming a woman and got baptized again in 2015. Maybe one day i’ll share my full testimony on the blog! I’m really grateful God gave me Neal right after I finished high school. He was such a blessing to me at a time I needed a good person in my life and we were able to grow through our most defining years together and not apart. To answer the second part of this question, I’m not perfect, but I do follow this now and God’s plan is always better (He’s proven that in my relationships, business, personal life etc.). Thank You Jesus! 

WHAT DOES MY IDEAL MORNING LOOK LIKE?

I shared my full morning routine here if you want to check that out!

WHAT IS SOMETHING I WOULD LOVE TO LEARN?

I’ve always wanted to learn how to surf! Mostly because I know I would totally suck at it and be so in my own head that I would fall a million times. I guess the challenge is what makes me want to learn how to do it more because if I can conquer surfing, I feel like I could conquer almost anything else, haha!

AT THE END OF MY LIFE, WHAT DO I WANT MY LEGACY TO BE? 

This is such a loaded question, but I pulled this one from the list on purpose. It’s SUCH a valuable question we definitely don’t ask ourselves enough, as we’re all kind of passive to it (in my opinion and myself included). We get up, go to our jobs, and do things but I truly believe purpose fuels passion. If you’re lacking passion, assess your purpose! Our pastor always asks us what legacy we want to leave behind and I love the challenge of this question and try to meditate on it everyday. I hope and pray my legacy is that I left people better than I found them. I pray that they were hopefully touched by my kindness and that I inspired even just one individual, but I’d say my biggest hope is that through being with me they would want to know God (and know how much they are loved by Him), and draw near Him, not because I preached at them (not my style), but by the way I loved them. I want to love the way Jesus did, and in no way am I a perfect human being to achieve that, but I like to try everyday. Not a heavy question at all right? Haha!

I hope you enjoyed this post! I had so much fun writing it for you all. I like sharing more of what’s on my heart lately, and letting you guys get to know me more so I hope you all are okay with that too! Again, I’d love to see your answers to these questions, so drop me them in the comments below, I read every single one! XO

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